She sounds defensive, and part of Quentin wants to kick himself for being a dick straight out of the gate. The other part, the part he hates, takes just a little too much satisfaction at dragging people down to his level of misery. He manages to swallow it down. Alice doesn't deserve this. Alice deserves the goddamn world. Even now.
Especially now, when things are messy and complicated. Half of it is Quentin's fault, and he gets up to sit just a little bit closer to her, joining her on the couch and twisting his body to properly face her. His voice softens, an apology without apologizing, and he speaks again.
"It's not that easy, Quentin. You can't just fix this -- you can't just fix me."
And that's what it still feels like sometimes, like he wants her to be the girls she was before, the one he fell in love with. But she doesn't know how to be that girl anymore, not after being a niffin. Not after knowing everything and feeling so little for what felt like so long. Sometimes she feels like she doesn't even know how to be human at all anymore.
Her pieces don't fit together the way they should.
And if she can't be okay with that, how can she expect anybody else to be?
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Especially now, when things are messy and complicated. Half of it is Quentin's fault, and he gets up to sit just a little bit closer to her, joining her on the couch and twisting his body to properly face her. His voice softens, an apology without apologizing, and he speaks again.
"I just--I want to fix this."
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And that's what it still feels like sometimes, like he wants her to be the girls she was before, the one he fell in love with. But she doesn't know how to be that girl anymore, not after being a niffin. Not after knowing everything and feeling so little for what felt like so long. Sometimes she feels like she doesn't even know how to be human at all anymore.
Her pieces don't fit together the way they should.
And if she can't be okay with that, how can she expect anybody else to be?