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Quentin Coldwater, banned from AO3 ([personal profile] volunteertomatoes) wrote2019-04-18 11:43 am
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[personal profile] fissures 2019-05-31 08:49 am (UTC)(link)
Alice stiffens at his words, they feel like little daggers digging into her skin. In truth, she doesn't know what they're doing either. She loves Quentin, she always will, but she doesn't know how to be with him anymore. She doesn't know how to even be herself anymore, or who that is now. She's not the girl she was before. She's not who she was as a niffin either.

"Well, that makes two of us then."

Her words are clipped and defensive, as they often are these days.
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[personal profile] fissures 2019-06-15 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)
"It's not that easy, Quentin. You can't just fix this -- you can't just fix me."

And that's what it still feels like sometimes, like he wants her to be the girls she was before, the one he fell in love with. But she doesn't know how to be that girl anymore, not after being a niffin. Not after knowing everything and feeling so little for what felt like so long. Sometimes she feels like she doesn't even know how to be human at all anymore.

Her pieces don't fit together the way they should.

And if she can't be okay with that, how can she expect anybody else to be?
Edited 2019-06-15 22:13 (UTC)