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volunteertomatoes) wrote2019-05-25 09:36 am
volunteertomatoes) wrote2019-05-25 09:36 am
asgard application;
tw for suicidal thoughts, depression, mental health
OOC INFO;
Player Name: Chase
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Current Character:
IC INFO;
Character Name: Quentin Makepeace Coldwater
Canon: The Magicians
Canon Information: The Magicians Wiki, Quentin's wiki.`
Canon Point: 3x12, right as Eliot shoots the monster
Age: early/mid 20s, probably 25
God Houses: Odin - While not nearly as intelligent and brilliantly gifted as some of his other compatriates, Quentin has a curiosity and a thirst for knowledge for the sake of knowledge, instead off power. Most Magicians hungrily seek out information and wisdom, and he’s no exception.
Tyr - Quentin's incredibly courageous, be it for others or facing his own issues. His diplomacy is far more subtle than a King tending to a kingdom, but it drives most of his friend group to stay together and (relatively) cohesive.
Heimdall - Heimdall is Quentin's bread and butter--he is fiercely loyal, which is both a positive or negative. He'll devote his time to his friends, do anything to save them from things like possession, and in a later season even dies for them. He'll stop at nothing to make sure his friends' injustices are dealt with, but once his loyalty and trust is broken, he'll purposely freeze someone out, regardless of their personal struggles and even if it hurts for him to do so.
Personality:
Quentin Clearwater is a giant nerd. At first glance he comes across as an introverted geek, and that's because he is. He's the sort of person that probably got shoved in a locker by the jocks in high school because he talks about Dungeons and Dragons too much, or at the very least that wouldn't be far from it. From a privileged home and with privileged parents, Quentin's own worst enemy tends to be himself.
He's quiet for the most part, but he's not necessarily shy. He dresses fairly plainly to reflect that. He has no problems indulging in conversation, however, and his anxiety isn’t of the crippling social kind. His tendency to chatter doubles when he's inebriated or when he gets to talk about what he loves--Lord of the Rings, Game of Thrones, high fantasy specifically, but most notably the fantasy novels of Fillory. For as anxious and moody as he can sometimes be, quiet is not his one mood--most of the time, he's just unsure of himself and his place in a conversation.
Quentin's magical discipline is a perfect example of who he is: he excels in minor mendings. While he's never considered himself a leader of their group (in a lot of ways he isn't), he's very much the glue that sticks everyone together. He is incredibly gifted and smart, though not as smart as his friends, nor is he as diplomatic as some of fthem. He doesn’t even have any special powers--Quentin is average, even by Magician standards. While that's disillusioned him slightly (what kind of person isn't the main character in their own life?), his real power lies in being able to mend the group. Not necessarily to fix problems, which he at times seems to compulsively try to do and winds up making it worse, but to carefully make sure everyone gets along. Half the time he's not aware he's even doing it and it’s all his subconscious need to make sure everyone in his found family is alright with each other.
Quentin deals with a lot of turbulent emotions, most notably depression and suicidal thoughts. As mentioned before, he's quite privileged--his family seems to be middle or upper middle class and his dad, while he doesn't understand him, supports him--but that doesn't seem to stop his overwhelming problems and struggles with mental illness. He's been in and out of hospitals since the age of 16, voluntarily checking himself in and constantly on some form of medication. The Fillory books are what he turned to the most--Quentin very much uses escapism as a coping mechanism for how he's feeling, although that's slowly dwindled as the show progresses and his maturity level does as well. He's specifically obsessed with how perfect and whimsical the world of Fillory is, and it's an incredible struggle and challenge when he realizes Fillory isn't a picture perfect child's tale when he visits the real one.
Quentin holds on to the idea of loving magic and Fillory and whimsy, and that's what separates him from the rest and pushes him forward during dark times. When the metaphorical rug is yanked out from under him and he finds out that Fillory is just as shitty as anywhere else, he's absolutely at a loss of what to do. When he kills one of Fillory's Gods and shuts off magic to the whole world, he uses the problem to fix (to mend) and focus on that instead of how he’s the one that did it. He actively pushes away the fact that the one thing he's loved has turned out to be yet another part of his perpetual disappointment.
He deals with said perpetual disappointment a lot, and it often spirals into guilt and contempt for himself. Even when he first got accepted into the magical post-grad school of Brakebills, things started off amazingly and he slowly, over time, became disillusioned with the whole thing. Fillory was just the final straw: the world and books meant so much to them, and it was real, only the childlike whimsy of being special and privy to the exclusivity didn't hold up in comparison to the fact that he can change his locale, but he'll still be himself: a Quentin full of self-loathing and depression. Despite all of this, he’s surprisingly not too jaded, constantly pushing himself forward with the help of his friends.
Quentin also has been known to self medicate--he has no problems with drugs and a lot of alcohol, though he's not a full-on addict, unlike some of the people he’s well acquainted with. Because of the self-perpetuating pity party he throws, Quentin is prone to lash out when frustrated or upset, even if he's just upset at himself. His inner voice often tells himself the worst things about him, and that's exactly how he fights: he often (and unfairly) flings people's innermost fears and insecurities right back in their face, and even if he doesn't mean it at the time, he'll sure say it anyway. It's less because he needs to 'win' and more because if he's miserable and upset, and someone else is upset with him, he may as well drag them down to his level. It's an ugly trait and one of his worst.
The Magicians (and Fillory) is a magical universe where certain things can happen -- dragons exist, people from earth can be king and queen of a mystical land, and people who have pain in their hearts can become almost god-like. One pivotal, incredible integral part of Quentin happens because of this. After Quentin kills one of Fillory’s Gods and turns off magic for the entirety of the world, he and his friends decide to go on a quest to fix it. Whisked away to Fillory with his best friend Eliot, they find themselves trapped in the magical kingdom but in the past, where they must solve a mosaic puzzle. They’re supposed to construct an image that represents the beauty of all life. Quentin and Eliot, determined to get it done, get to work.
It takes them 50 years to do it. Quentin grows as a person; grows old, he even falls in love with Eliot and raises his child with him. It’s only when Eliot dies that Quentin solves the puzzle--the beauty of all life was in each other and the love they found in their relationship. This has a significant change in Quentin from then on forward--back in the future, once Eliot and Quentin remember what happened and the full, healthy lives they live, Quentin’s personality shifts.
He’s still all of the things mentioned in these previous paragraphs, but he’s far more mellow. That anxiety is still there, and that depression hasn’t gone away, and he’s still steadfast and loyal and very much a nerdy gryffindor-esque type, but he’s able to reign himself in. He’s able to work better under pressure, as the entirety of the end of season 3 and 4 has Quentin barely struggling to stay above water as he deals with situations he and his friends inadvertently caused. We see Quentin for who he really is after this--a genuinely good but troubled person trying to find his place in the world and fix his mess.
Writing Sample: TDM with Eliot
TDM top level
OOC INFO;
Player Name: Chase
Contact Info:
IC INFO;
Character Name: Quentin Makepeace Coldwater
Canon: The Magicians
Canon Information: The Magicians Wiki, Quentin's wiki.`
Canon Point: 3x12, right as Eliot shoots the monster
Age: early/mid 20s, probably 25
God Houses: Odin - While not nearly as intelligent and brilliantly gifted as some of his other compatriates, Quentin has a curiosity and a thirst for knowledge for the sake of knowledge, instead off power. Most Magicians hungrily seek out information and wisdom, and he’s no exception.
Tyr - Quentin's incredibly courageous, be it for others or facing his own issues. His diplomacy is far more subtle than a King tending to a kingdom, but it drives most of his friend group to stay together and (relatively) cohesive.
Heimdall - Heimdall is Quentin's bread and butter--he is fiercely loyal, which is both a positive or negative. He'll devote his time to his friends, do anything to save them from things like possession, and in a later season even dies for them. He'll stop at nothing to make sure his friends' injustices are dealt with, but once his loyalty and trust is broken, he'll purposely freeze someone out, regardless of their personal struggles and even if it hurts for him to do so.
Personality:
Quentin Clearwater is a giant nerd. At first glance he comes across as an introverted geek, and that's because he is. He's the sort of person that probably got shoved in a locker by the jocks in high school because he talks about Dungeons and Dragons too much, or at the very least that wouldn't be far from it. From a privileged home and with privileged parents, Quentin's own worst enemy tends to be himself.
He's quiet for the most part, but he's not necessarily shy. He dresses fairly plainly to reflect that. He has no problems indulging in conversation, however, and his anxiety isn’t of the crippling social kind. His tendency to chatter doubles when he's inebriated or when he gets to talk about what he loves--Lord of the Rings, Game of Thrones, high fantasy specifically, but most notably the fantasy novels of Fillory. For as anxious and moody as he can sometimes be, quiet is not his one mood--most of the time, he's just unsure of himself and his place in a conversation.
Quentin's magical discipline is a perfect example of who he is: he excels in minor mendings. While he's never considered himself a leader of their group (in a lot of ways he isn't), he's very much the glue that sticks everyone together. He is incredibly gifted and smart, though not as smart as his friends, nor is he as diplomatic as some of fthem. He doesn’t even have any special powers--Quentin is average, even by Magician standards. While that's disillusioned him slightly (what kind of person isn't the main character in their own life?), his real power lies in being able to mend the group. Not necessarily to fix problems, which he at times seems to compulsively try to do and winds up making it worse, but to carefully make sure everyone gets along. Half the time he's not aware he's even doing it and it’s all his subconscious need to make sure everyone in his found family is alright with each other.
Quentin deals with a lot of turbulent emotions, most notably depression and suicidal thoughts. As mentioned before, he's quite privileged--his family seems to be middle or upper middle class and his dad, while he doesn't understand him, supports him--but that doesn't seem to stop his overwhelming problems and struggles with mental illness. He's been in and out of hospitals since the age of 16, voluntarily checking himself in and constantly on some form of medication. The Fillory books are what he turned to the most--Quentin very much uses escapism as a coping mechanism for how he's feeling, although that's slowly dwindled as the show progresses and his maturity level does as well. He's specifically obsessed with how perfect and whimsical the world of Fillory is, and it's an incredible struggle and challenge when he realizes Fillory isn't a picture perfect child's tale when he visits the real one.
Quentin holds on to the idea of loving magic and Fillory and whimsy, and that's what separates him from the rest and pushes him forward during dark times. When the metaphorical rug is yanked out from under him and he finds out that Fillory is just as shitty as anywhere else, he's absolutely at a loss of what to do. When he kills one of Fillory's Gods and shuts off magic to the whole world, he uses the problem to fix (to mend) and focus on that instead of how he’s the one that did it. He actively pushes away the fact that the one thing he's loved has turned out to be yet another part of his perpetual disappointment.
He deals with said perpetual disappointment a lot, and it often spirals into guilt and contempt for himself. Even when he first got accepted into the magical post-grad school of Brakebills, things started off amazingly and he slowly, over time, became disillusioned with the whole thing. Fillory was just the final straw: the world and books meant so much to them, and it was real, only the childlike whimsy of being special and privy to the exclusivity didn't hold up in comparison to the fact that he can change his locale, but he'll still be himself: a Quentin full of self-loathing and depression. Despite all of this, he’s surprisingly not too jaded, constantly pushing himself forward with the help of his friends.
Quentin also has been known to self medicate--he has no problems with drugs and a lot of alcohol, though he's not a full-on addict, unlike some of the people he’s well acquainted with. Because of the self-perpetuating pity party he throws, Quentin is prone to lash out when frustrated or upset, even if he's just upset at himself. His inner voice often tells himself the worst things about him, and that's exactly how he fights: he often (and unfairly) flings people's innermost fears and insecurities right back in their face, and even if he doesn't mean it at the time, he'll sure say it anyway. It's less because he needs to 'win' and more because if he's miserable and upset, and someone else is upset with him, he may as well drag them down to his level. It's an ugly trait and one of his worst.
The Magicians (and Fillory) is a magical universe where certain things can happen -- dragons exist, people from earth can be king and queen of a mystical land, and people who have pain in their hearts can become almost god-like. One pivotal, incredible integral part of Quentin happens because of this. After Quentin kills one of Fillory’s Gods and turns off magic for the entirety of the world, he and his friends decide to go on a quest to fix it. Whisked away to Fillory with his best friend Eliot, they find themselves trapped in the magical kingdom but in the past, where they must solve a mosaic puzzle. They’re supposed to construct an image that represents the beauty of all life. Quentin and Eliot, determined to get it done, get to work.
It takes them 50 years to do it. Quentin grows as a person; grows old, he even falls in love with Eliot and raises his child with him. It’s only when Eliot dies that Quentin solves the puzzle--the beauty of all life was in each other and the love they found in their relationship. This has a significant change in Quentin from then on forward--back in the future, once Eliot and Quentin remember what happened and the full, healthy lives they live, Quentin’s personality shifts.
He’s still all of the things mentioned in these previous paragraphs, but he’s far more mellow. That anxiety is still there, and that depression hasn’t gone away, and he’s still steadfast and loyal and very much a nerdy gryffindor-esque type, but he’s able to reign himself in. He’s able to work better under pressure, as the entirety of the end of season 3 and 4 has Quentin barely struggling to stay above water as he deals with situations he and his friends inadvertently caused. We see Quentin for who he really is after this--a genuinely good but troubled person trying to find his place in the world and fix his mess.
Writing Sample: TDM with Eliot
TDM top level